You’ve probably heard about fetishes before — maybe you saw some tawdry show on late night TV or read something on Reddit — but how much do you know about what it really means to live with one?

In the latest HuffPost Love+Sex podcast, co-hosts Carina Kolodny and Noah Michelson explore the world of fetishes, specifically focusing on one man who is sexually aroused by adult diapers.

“I want people to understand is that it’s not something I chose or wanted and a lot of times, I have wanted to get rid of it,” Brian*, a 32-year-old Midwestern man, told Kolodny and Michelson. “It’s not in my capacity to alter this. After years of struggling with it, whatever I do, it’s there to stay and I know how it makes you feel when you hear about it. I know how weird and bizarre it seems and all I can say is that it’s beyond my control.”

Brian also discusses how his adult diaper fetish is affecting his personal life, the origin of his fetish and why he decided to share his experiences with the world. Dr. Zhana Vrangalova, a sex expert and professor at New York University, also joins the podcast to offer her insight on the subject:

Source: The Huffington Post